Another Road To Be Taken

Life has a way of pushing you forward even when you feel just fine where you are.

Today I received my termination date from CES about the position at Chrysler. Oh its not just me, 260 people are expected to be let go between the 15th and the 18th. Its not personal, in fact I know my bosses have done everything in their power to keep me short from painting me brown and shipping me to India for a few weeks to get citizenship over there.. However I wouldn’t put it past them.. LOL After all that have given me an Indian Name and refer to me as that.. I guess they were hoping to disguise me from my American/white heritage.. lol Thanks Gents for your efforts, it truly does not go unnoticed or appreciated.

This all being said, Chapter 37 has closed 38 begins. I am moving back in with my Ex-husband/current boyfriend over in the Grand Rapids area. I have a few job interviews in that area and am hoping that maybe by the end of August I’ll have a job!!! Keep the fingers crossed for me!!

I feel pretty good about the move, and actually I am ok with the change.. The hardest thing to do is let go of what I was building. My own home again, by myself. Its bittersweet, this stage I’m in, because I saw myself on a very clear path and have now realized that I have completely veered off onto a different one.

Personally I never would have expected Ronn and I to get back together, and I certainly NEVER anticipated moving in with him. Its rather frightening and I often find myself questioning if this is the right decision, and then I hear his voice and I’m ok. I find myself more interested in developing my relationship with him then I am about being out on my own. I suppose I have grown up and realized what is important to me. Don’t get me wrong, a career is still in the top 5, but being with a man that I truly love has proven itself to be of most importance.

What about my kids? Well, of COURSE they are always #1, but when your kids are old enough to step out into the world on their own you realize they have their own lives to lead and cannot live for them any longer. Both of the girls are in the process of defining the women they want to be and what they want out of life. Kirra is doing much better then Karin at this stage, but I have hope and faith in both of them.

Admittedly I am nervous about something’s with Ronn & I, and I assure you he is well aware of them. But he mentioned a relationship is like a project, its something that always requires work and oddly enough, I’m a Project Manager so I think I have this handled. J We both have to forego egos and serious stubborn streaks in order to prevail, but that would be in any relationship not just the one we are in together.

The thing that sets him apart from all other relationships I have had is, while we had issues while married, I always held him in high regard. No I didn’t like that he was a punk ass, but he is working on his part and I mine. He is just a good person and while we weren’t together I always missed him and respected his thoughts and opinions. He became a friend and earned a lot of the trust that had dissipated while married.

Over the past year or so I had a few relationships, not that they were bad, but they helped me to realize that Ronn is more of a match for me then I had expected. He is the man that makes me happy, despite any critizim and comment but those people don't really know shit about me anyway.

So for today, I want Ronn in my life, a fresh start in a new place and a new career opportunity and I am willing to do what it takes to make my future my own. The cool thing about life is you never know where its going to take you.