All things in their time.

So I am officially moved. All the stuff was brought over last Monday and I pretty much had everything unpacked by Tuesday when Ronn got home from work. Wednesday I went and signed all of the paperwork for my short term contract position at Alticore. Thursday I made my way out the Shelby Twp to clean the apartment and turn over the keys.



All in all, it has been an arduouspast few weeks and the emotion of it all is still catching up with me. Often I feel like the filter on my emotional status has completely collapsed under the stress. I am miserable without my daughters close by, and I wonder how long it will take until I get over this feeling. I am worried sick about Karin and what will happen with her, she is my baby after all.



Tomorrow I start my new job. I'm annoyed that I didn't request more time off as I really need it to adapt to things before jumping into it all like I have. What I really need is a vacation, a long quiet rest where I can filter through my thoughts and rid of what isn't needed. Tam is having a camping thing up at her place the 23rd of August, I may go up there for the weekend.. However I am not sure spending the time with a bunch of small children will be what I am looking for. What I urn for at the moment is a quiet weekend up in Petosky where I can sit on the pier at Magnus beach and watch the tide come in. There is a quite repose to the sound of the waves licking up onto the stony beach.



Unfortunately, the position I have taken doesn't allow for any paid time off.. which means no days off, no vacation, no nothing. Admittedly while its a job , I am resentful that I have allowed myself to accept a position that is leaps and bounds backwards from where I was from. My only hope is to finally hear something about the Lansing job soon and that they can offer something much more interesting.



None the less, I'll only be without a paycheck for 1 week, and while I have filed for unemployment, there are things that I had to do prior to actually calling MARVIN.. All to which took a backseat to getting the move etc done. Meaning it was more important to have my environment in order for me to function in a matter to which is conducive to thought.



In the end, To much change to fast and I am overwhelmed. I actually feel sorry for Ronn for having to deal with my moodiness and my inability to keep myself from tearing up at the mere mention of my daughters name. I suppose this will be a pretty good test of how things will be. All things in their time.. To bad I lack patience..