DONE!!!

This was the first official full week of me living in Grand Rapids, and the end of my first full week of work.

Sigh, well, the work isn't bad and G-Rap is beautiful, but I am super home sick. I miss my family and kids something fierce, and well, it goes without saying I miss my social network. Everyday it was kinda the same thing I would do on the other side of the state, I would get up go to work, come home, do my daily chores, relax, bed, then all over again. There were times where I would meet up with a friend, or hang with my sister, but for the most part It was rather routine. Its kinda the same here, without the friends. I do talk to people on the phone, email, and text, but I can't help but feel disconnected from the people I am used to spending time with.

Another monkey wrench thrown at me was that I ended up getting pretty sick. It started last week sometime, Actually when I was cleaning my old apartment last Thursday when I started feeling yucky. I figured it was allergies, a cold, you know the same old stuff.. Come Sunday not feeling any better, I bought some cold/flu stuff and allergy stuff to help me get through the feeling. As of Tuesday I was only getting worse, and considered going to the Urgent care here. Unfortunately I don't have insurance and found out the the minimum cost would be 150 bucks. So I opted out of that thought and said I'll tough it out. I felt ok Wednesday and was convinced that I was on the road to recovery, when Thursday morning I woke up feeling worse then ever.

At that time I sucked it up and went into urgent care. Good thing too cuz I guess I was sick, and not just allergy/cold ridden. Strep, Sinus Infection, and Bronchitis. The doc also said I had most of the symptoms of meningitis, but that because I didn't have the insurance and couldn't pay for the testing AND That it was only an Urgent care clinic, he couldn't do any of the proper tests. Strep he didn't do the swab for either, but that one is easy to catch without it especially since I get it often. We discussed my options, he told me what to watch for, and gave me a script for the Z-Pak. Which is the only way to go when it comes to drugs.. short term, 1 pill a day for a few days.. Sign me up!!!

So upon Checking out, the bill without any tests ended up being 208.00 I KNOW holy shit!!! I thought I would break down into tears.. and it sucked cuz two weeks exactly prior I had insurance. It just seemed so unfair, and I had a pity party for myself.

I paid the bill, and made my way home to grab Ronn. I made him come with me because I needed sympathy. Bad move on my part, he had a rough day and wasn't in the mood to be around people let alone deal with a whiny me. But he went with me anyway to get the drugs and a few other things. I have to admit, I was rather annoyed at his lack of compassion for my situation, and I felt lonely and wanted to go home. So I talked to mom for a bit, and then my sister. I felt a bit better knowing they missed me as much as I missed them. And then I took my whiny ass to bed.

Now in Ronn's defence, I know he isn't the kinda of guy to be overly concerned with other peoples feelings.. Its annoying as hell to me, but its something I do recognize about him. My goal is to hope that on some level he learns to be more compassionate if nothing else to the people in his life right now. That includes his, ex wife, kids, family etc. But.. He's 40 in a few weeks and I don't see him having any revolutions..

I am not saying he is devoid of compassion, he just is very selective where he applies it. Its not uncommon really, he's just really good at being not concerned.

Soooo, Kari just called, and said she met a different guy. I'm so glad, I told her its better to date multiple people and try them out before choosing a partner. She tends to get so wrapped up in one guy and thats it. I told her its good for her to think of this experience like shoe shopping, you may like what you see, and they may be ok when you try them on, but you can always find something else. I hope she heeds my advice. I think she needs it.. Good luck to you Kar-Bear!!

The job thing is fine, I wish I felt more excited about it, but I just am not.. sure I'm learning a new thing or two, a new PM tool thats cool, its just not Chrysler. I am tellin ya it will be hard to compare to that place.. Even at its worst Chrysler was the best place to work. I miss my people sooo much there. I do keep in touch with my friends via email which I send to them pretty much daily. It makes me feel connected still, I really crave that and desperately need it as well.

I figure I'll make the trek back to the east side coming up soon and I'll see if there is any chance of some of my friend getting together for a bit. I would love to see them all again.

So, at this time I throw my hands in the air and claim DONE!! Week 1 down, a lot more to go..

Peace Out!